mY pUrPoSe....

This life is so everchanging, yet boring...I'm so ready for something new, exciting, and fun!~! I find myself growing tired of the same ole routine day in and day out. I'm just ready to be happy and enjoy life...when does that come for me? I try to do it for myself, however, I don't find anything unless I have to pay for it...that can get expensive and fast! I know my biggest problem is being alone...I can't stand it. I need someone to sweep me off my feet & keep me there. Not just temporarily either. I want someone to love me and give me what I always give. Damnit, I want to feel the way I make others feel. I get so tired of giving, I just want to receive some back. Does that person exist or is my purpose just to be a lonely, sad soul on this earth so that others can look at me and be happy? I get happy for a moment but then something or someone shuts it down :( I'm tired.